I always feel consumed. There are so many things going on in my life and there just doesn’t seem to be enough of me to go around. I find myself overwhelmed more often than not. I just can’t seem to push pass this wall of demand. And because of this who suffers? What suffers? I’ll tell you, me and my relationship with Christ.
I am a mother, a wife, a Town employee, and the list goes on and on. All of these titles have their own set of demands. I often struggle to juggle it all and it leaves me exhausted. What do I do first? With all these areas pining for my attention and energy, I tend to forget that God tells me in His word that He comes first. Duh, Well I knew that. Unfortunately, there is a difference in knowing and truly knowing. If I truly knew, I’d apply. Why can’t I delve into His word as if my life depended on it? Because it does. Why can’t I retain and hold fast to what I’m reading? Why do I constantly feel like I am falling short and God is disappointed in me? Is he?
My dilemma? The answer to all of these questions lies within His word, in which I am struggling to grasp. All the other demands are consuming me. I’m giving God the leftovers and He would never do that to me. He would give me His best. So why I can’t I do the same? We serve a jealous God(Exodus 34:14), and I dare not risk everything because I’m just giving Him anything.
I hope this encourages someone who may be just a bit overwhelmed themselves. Know that you are not alone. It happens to the best of us. But there is a God in whom we can call on, and He will be there. (Deut. 31:6-8)
As Always be Blessed and Pray my Strength!
Shatina Archer-Williams
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